What it means to be submissive to me.

Ghandi once said, The best way to find yourself, is to lose yourself in the service of others." Now growing up, I never knew what that meant. But I was different. I hated listening and doing what my father and later my stepfather said, but I always wanted to do what my mother told me to. I wanted to please her, show her I was a good boy. Then getting older it was my teachers, all female. Not so much my older sister, we had the whole sibling rivalry thing and I disliked her growing up, but I did take things she told me to heart, like when I wasn't good enough or I was a horrible dancer, things like that.
It wasn't till I got out of High school and joined the military that I realized that I was more submissive than I thought, especially to my female superior officers. I started to dream about wanting to please them more and more, with tasks and sexually. I wanted yo give myself and be theirs to command.
When I got out of the military and I had time to reflect, I figured out that being submissive to me is to give myself over to a strong, intelligent, beautiful woman completely. To be hers. I want to make her happy and show her I can make her happy.. Do as she says and worship her with my words, my body, and my soul. There is a need in mew to serve in this way, an urge to please my mistress, goddess, Master, queen,whatever her title. She is Superior to me and I know that. I know my place is bowing at her feet or kneeling if I can with her. Anticipating her need be it physical or other. My love for my Queen is deep and I always want to show her that loyalty and love for her.
So as Ghandi has said, I have found myself in my servitude to my betters,