Discovering myself
I am newly divorced and now have the freedome to discover my body and my sexuallity. I can finally live and play out all my fantasies. I don't say that I have mastered the art of masterbation but it is the only way I was able to get threw the last few years of marriage. I lived on porn sites and learned what makes my clit happy. I know how it feels when my fingers trace the outer lips to my clit. I can feel how hard I get when I think of a sweet, wet cock rubbing against my ass. I can feel my heart quicken at the thought of a cock close to my pussy. I have always fantasized of a cock penetrating my tight virgin ass. Just thinking about a cock makes me wet. At first, I noticed on how easily aroused I became by many simple things by merely rephrasing statements made by my friends in normal conversation. Then by seeing other guys in the prime of their lives walking around with hard cocks.
Really, all I think about is how can I please myself. So this is the story of a woman being her sex goddess adventures and becoming a Mistress.
I have alway enjoyed watching other people in general but to watch them fucking or just pleasing their self was such a turn on. Luckily I was fairly comfortable with myself and did not feel ashamed, but rather fascinated on how far a little stimulation could go. As more nights passed, I wanted more and actually used my fingers to give myself pleasure. After a single orgasm I would ease back, tired and content and had a relaxing nights sleep. When it was that time of the month, I didn't dare touch myself because I didn't want to deal with the mess. So I resorted to go back to have the fantasies run through my mind, but I still wanted to be truly satisfied. When that agonizing week was over and after a long warm bath, my mind was still on the same thing. I was beginning to wonder if this is what guys felt at their sexual peak. It was just driving me crazy! The feelings and the basic urge stayed with me as I dressed for bed and I once again laid there thinking. First, I tried to take it slow. There must be a reason to why I was feeling like this. With the fantasies racing though my mind and no orgasm, I tried my fingers but that only succeeded frustration. I must get a vibrater. So I grabbed my keys and went to the nearest sex toy store I could find.I decided that I would like to try a vibe rather than a dildo because if I found that I didn't like the vibrations, I could always turn it off and simply use it as a dildo. Also, as I did more homework on the subject, I figured that a waterproof toy would be the best choice since it would make cleaning it much easier. I was not to excited over the slim and sleek models so I wanted mine to be realistic in shape and texture, but color could be(I like purple) whatever that was available. Then it came down to figuring out what size I wanted. I was so hot, that I was thinking about having a massive toy like one of those called the Emperor that was about 10 inches long and almost 3 inches thick! But I had to be more reasonable since just about every FAQ on the subject clearly stated that beginners should start out with a toy that was a modest size. That was the last thing that I wanted! I didn't want to be stuck with a toy that was only 4 inches! I turned off my computer and grabbed my purse and keys and walked out the door. I was just about shaking with nerves driving across town. I have never thought about doing something like this before. What was I getting into? I figured that I still had one last chance to turn back and it was to stop to get some gas and have something else to think about for a few minutes, but that did not deter me. I was back on the road en route to this place that says that they had the biggest selection. When I made it to the parking lot, my hands were shaking a lot. I finally told myself that the worst thing that could happen was that I would just walk around, look like some idiot, buy nothing and go home. Right. There was no harm in just looking. but my clitt knew diffrent. My pussy was getting wetter by the minute and I had thought about masturbating in the car before going in but .....to be continued
Really, all I think about is how can I please myself. So this is the story of a woman being her sex goddess adventures and becoming a Mistress.
I have alway enjoyed watching other people in general but to watch them fucking or just pleasing their self was such a turn on. Luckily I was fairly comfortable with myself and did not feel ashamed, but rather fascinated on how far a little stimulation could go. As more nights passed, I wanted more and actually used my fingers to give myself pleasure. After a single orgasm I would ease back, tired and content and had a relaxing nights sleep. When it was that time of the month, I didn't dare touch myself because I didn't want to deal with the mess. So I resorted to go back to have the fantasies run through my mind, but I still wanted to be truly satisfied. When that agonizing week was over and after a long warm bath, my mind was still on the same thing. I was beginning to wonder if this is what guys felt at their sexual peak. It was just driving me crazy! The feelings and the basic urge stayed with me as I dressed for bed and I once again laid there thinking. First, I tried to take it slow. There must be a reason to why I was feeling like this. With the fantasies racing though my mind and no orgasm, I tried my fingers but that only succeeded frustration. I must get a vibrater. So I grabbed my keys and went to the nearest sex toy store I could find.I decided that I would like to try a vibe rather than a dildo because if I found that I didn't like the vibrations, I could always turn it off and simply use it as a dildo. Also, as I did more homework on the subject, I figured that a waterproof toy would be the best choice since it would make cleaning it much easier. I was not to excited over the slim and sleek models so I wanted mine to be realistic in shape and texture, but color could be(I like purple) whatever that was available. Then it came down to figuring out what size I wanted. I was so hot, that I was thinking about having a massive toy like one of those called the Emperor that was about 10 inches long and almost 3 inches thick! But I had to be more reasonable since just about every FAQ on the subject clearly stated that beginners should start out with a toy that was a modest size. That was the last thing that I wanted! I didn't want to be stuck with a toy that was only 4 inches! I turned off my computer and grabbed my purse and keys and walked out the door. I was just about shaking with nerves driving across town. I have never thought about doing something like this before. What was I getting into? I figured that I still had one last chance to turn back and it was to stop to get some gas and have something else to think about for a few minutes, but that did not deter me. I was back on the road en route to this place that says that they had the biggest selection. When I made it to the parking lot, my hands were shaking a lot. I finally told myself that the worst thing that could happen was that I would just walk around, look like some idiot, buy nothing and go home. Right. There was no harm in just looking. but my clitt knew diffrent. My pussy was getting wetter by the minute and I had thought about masturbating in the car before going in but .....to be continued
11 年 前
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