History repeats itself

If u don't learn from the past... u r destin to repeat it

In the past I've had a problem with not letting the man I'm with get enough sleep like really clear rules must be set cuz I guess people need sleep or something who knew lol cuz I will keep them up all night and wake them up early and like everyone says oh that's great till they have done it a few times then its all grrrrr need sleep

I'm trying to be good I really am...... so that's y I went in the other room and didnt just stay in bed with Bob it was way to early and if I had stayed in bed with him.... I wouldn't be able to help it I'm weak lol

Most of the time I'll just wear myself out but not when I only get to c him once a week

But I'm a little worried he only text me like twice since Fri.. and the morning after

I had a great time fri and I think he did but maybe not maybe I fucked up maybe I shouldn't have left him in bed alone or..... IDK

But he always texts everyday but not sat and he only text me sun after I txt him and asked him to text and if everything was OK.... he did and said he had been busy and maybe he will text me today and everything really is fine

But...

Last time.... when he left he stopped texting me first

So I'm a little worried that Bob is about to leave me but at the same time I was just starting to think he liked me like not just to fuck me but likes me I know I'm such a girl sometimes but still

He drives over an hour to come c me every Fri even though he wishes it was sat night Fri is when I'm available so he does it even when he has to work sat and he came in early this week for me cuz I wanted to show him some things and like when we played dress up he had me in dresses cute little sun dresses even though I have hot little slutty ones and the whole sister thing when I told him I couldn't tell her happy birthday from him cuz she didn't know who he was he could have said nvm goodpoint whatever but he didn't he wanted me to tell her to tell my family about him and just a hundred other sweet little things

So IDK i hope it really is nothing... I like him

But I still don't know what I want i know if he was one of my stallions this would be so much simpler he could leave and it would be OK just like I could it wouldn't mean it was over

And that's part of y IDK if I want him to like me if he does if its more when it ends then it over

And I'm not done yet