PART III: My Wife's Journey To A Black Lover
This all leads to the most interesting comments my wife had to say about all of this. Helen explained hardly ever talked to black men during our marriage and before we were married the only black guy that she even remotely was interested in was the black drummer at the NCO Club.
Helen told me things are so much different now because she says she talks freely to black guys at work because she knows I am not going to get jealous. It was awesome to hear her say that but more importantly was watching her face light up and seeing her smile about it. Since we communicate more with our bodies and facial expressions I knew Helen was validating everything we have discussed and an increased openness about her fondness for black men.
Helen has never been one to express herself, she is quite reserved in matters like this. From the way she was talking it was obvious she wanted to tell me things she seemed to have kept bottled up since we started talking of this a couple of years ago. My take from what she told me about "talking" to black men is she enjoys the attention they give her and I've told Helen that being a desirable older white woman if you give a black man even the smallest indication you are available they are going to take a lot of interest in you.
Having said that in the last paragraph Helen started talking about Isaac, a nice looking, well built older black gentlemen I mentioned in previous blog. Helen reminded me he was Security at the casino where she works and he escorted her around whenever she had money. She said he always the gentleman and very confident in himself without stating it, a thing she loves by the way.
Anyway she told me he was let go because he hit someone during a melee at the club in the casino and she thought it was wrong because he was the guy they went to for fights because he was big. Helen kept telling me about how well built he was and that if I saw him I would have been impressed. She said his arms huge, he definitely worked out and he was a big man. At this point Helen was effusive in her praise saying he was charming, had touch of gray in his hair that looked good and he was the perfect specimen.
I asked Helen what else she thought and like in my previous blog she said he looks like the type of guy white couples go to who are looking for black men. She said he works security for other clubs so I bet he has done this, and I interjected and said I know he has been with a lot of white women for sure if he is what you say he is. I asked Helen what she "thought" of him and finally sounding a little flustered Helen said I can tell you this "I'd do him."
When Helen said that I said it sounds like you are really interested in him. Helen said she was but that he worked with her and that would have been a problem. I asked but are you still interested in him, she said yes but he does not work there anymore. Then she stated something about him being a good looking man and I said to her it sounds like you want me to go out and find him to which she laughed and said no but then hedged and said he probably can be found working at one the clubs.
From where I sit I think Helen is smitten with this mam. I probably did not understand why Helen was expressing herself so well but now it is obvious, she actually found a black man she wants as a lover but kept it under wraps. She comes out and states he is the "perfect specimen" and that phrase is to let me know he is everything in a black man we both want to see her with; he is a large muscular black man which is turn on for my wife because she wants a black man who makes her feel petite next to him, she has a mental connection with him so she already sees them being compatible and she must know he is very well endowed.
When we initially started talking about all of this Helen said she wanted to lose a few pounds so she can be more comfortable with her body, which is great. But I believe Helen is interested in having Isaac as a black lover and wants to make a good impression on him when she takes her clothes off in front of him. I already believe she looks good and I know she feels good about her body but given how she talk of Isaac she wants to be her best for him.
Helen told me things are so much different now because she says she talks freely to black guys at work because she knows I am not going to get jealous. It was awesome to hear her say that but more importantly was watching her face light up and seeing her smile about it. Since we communicate more with our bodies and facial expressions I knew Helen was validating everything we have discussed and an increased openness about her fondness for black men.
Helen has never been one to express herself, she is quite reserved in matters like this. From the way she was talking it was obvious she wanted to tell me things she seemed to have kept bottled up since we started talking of this a couple of years ago. My take from what she told me about "talking" to black men is she enjoys the attention they give her and I've told Helen that being a desirable older white woman if you give a black man even the smallest indication you are available they are going to take a lot of interest in you.
Having said that in the last paragraph Helen started talking about Isaac, a nice looking, well built older black gentlemen I mentioned in previous blog. Helen reminded me he was Security at the casino where she works and he escorted her around whenever she had money. She said he always the gentleman and very confident in himself without stating it, a thing she loves by the way.
Anyway she told me he was let go because he hit someone during a melee at the club in the casino and she thought it was wrong because he was the guy they went to for fights because he was big. Helen kept telling me about how well built he was and that if I saw him I would have been impressed. She said his arms huge, he definitely worked out and he was a big man. At this point Helen was effusive in her praise saying he was charming, had touch of gray in his hair that looked good and he was the perfect specimen.
I asked Helen what else she thought and like in my previous blog she said he looks like the type of guy white couples go to who are looking for black men. She said he works security for other clubs so I bet he has done this, and I interjected and said I know he has been with a lot of white women for sure if he is what you say he is. I asked Helen what she "thought" of him and finally sounding a little flustered Helen said I can tell you this "I'd do him."
When Helen said that I said it sounds like you are really interested in him. Helen said she was but that he worked with her and that would have been a problem. I asked but are you still interested in him, she said yes but he does not work there anymore. Then she stated something about him being a good looking man and I said to her it sounds like you want me to go out and find him to which she laughed and said no but then hedged and said he probably can be found working at one the clubs.
From where I sit I think Helen is smitten with this mam. I probably did not understand why Helen was expressing herself so well but now it is obvious, she actually found a black man she wants as a lover but kept it under wraps. She comes out and states he is the "perfect specimen" and that phrase is to let me know he is everything in a black man we both want to see her with; he is a large muscular black man which is turn on for my wife because she wants a black man who makes her feel petite next to him, she has a mental connection with him so she already sees them being compatible and she must know he is very well endowed.
When we initially started talking about all of this Helen said she wanted to lose a few pounds so she can be more comfortable with her body, which is great. But I believe Helen is interested in having Isaac as a black lover and wants to make a good impression on him when she takes her clothes off in front of him. I already believe she looks good and I know she feels good about her body but given how she talk of Isaac she wants to be her best for him.
10 年 前