When I first realized I might be gay

I had only recently discovered the pleasure of jerking off, so I must have been around 12 years old. My family owned a small business and I helped out whenever I could. During summer break I was allowed to work in the warehouse for the first time. It was hard work but I didn't mind and liked most of the guys that I worked with. They were mostly guys in their twenties just trying to earn a little cash until they could find a better job. I was a little shocked at first by all of their "gay" jokes and k**ding. At first I thought they might all actually be gay but I soon figured out that they were just teasing. Some of the guys would talk with a lisp occasionally or joke with another guy about giving him a blowjob. This banter went on a lot but as time went by I got used to it and wasn't offended if they directed their comments to me.

I enjoyed working with all of the guys except one. His name was John. He was the meanest, dirtiest, nastiest and oldest guys in the warehouse. He would say things to me like, "I know you want to suck my big cock", "I'm gonna be the first to break-in that little ass", and other things like that. He would act like he was joking but the way he looked at me made me uncomfortable. Sometimes he would grab his cock through his jeans when he made these comments. One day when he was doing this I happened to notice how big the bulge was in his jeans. Several times during the rest of the day I found myself sneaking glances at his crotch. I just couldn't get over how big his cock must be.

That night as I was jerking off in bed the thought of me kneeling in front of John and sucking his big cock flashed into my mind. It was the first time I had ever thought about actually sucking a cock. I had been fascinated by some of the bigger ones in the locker room at school but I hadn't thought of sucking them. When I thought about John, my cock throbbed and I almost instantly had the most intense orgasm I had ever experienced. Afterwards, I felt sick and guilty and swore never to think such thoughts again. A few minutes later I was masturbating again, thinking of John's big dirty cock cumming down my throat.

It was several years before I experienced my first real cock, but my fantasies about John opened my mind. From that time on I realized that I was a little different than most of my friends and that I didn't have to be like everyone else.

I'll write about my first time sucking cock in another blog. Thanks for reading!
Jack

发布者 jacklondonondeck

9 年前

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jacklondonondeck 出版商 2 月前

至 Shy-Fag : Thank you for your comment. Yes, it took me a long time to cum to terms with the idea that I was bi and it to much longer to finally realize that I'm gay.

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Shy-Fag 2 月前

Beautiful story and full of passion. You just needed an opportunity that would bring you to the awareness and ecstatic excitement of orgasm to understand that your destiny was to be gay.

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jacklondonondeck 出版商 5 月前

至 Anfrield : I'd love to hear more about your experiences with your friend!

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Anfrield 5 月前

I experienced about the same feelings growing up, started masturbating at 7, and later I discovered I not only got erections from seeing a nude girl but also from men's erect cocks. What a delight, finding a Swedish porn magazine in full colour with a large cock, licked by two beautiful girls. I never lost this feeling, sometimes a house friend of my father felt me in the cross at 16, but I pushed his hand away. I only gave in to my feelings being 18, he drove me home in his car, steamed me up with intimate talk and then it happened, being parked along a path in the nature reserve. He touched, felt how hard my cock was. Seconds later he started jerking me and feeling I was getting to an orgasm, he gave me my first manly blowjob. One of the best nights of my life, the beginning of decades of discrete, intimate soft play together...

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cityboy57 5 月前

Great story,i can relate to some of that.

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Bigcoksmallsacoffury 6 月前

至 jacklondonondeck : Damn I love how you describe that, it's very sensual! You're awesome! I'm picturing an overloaded tight and sheer jockstrap stretched to the max by thick and meaty cock and plump scrotum with defined big balls. I bet he wanted everyone to see him and be envious or horny.

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jacklondonondeck 出版商 6 月前

至 Bigcoksmallsacoffury : I'm a bulge lover too. Sometimes I find myself more aroused by a huge bulge than I am by a big cock. After coming to terms with my feelings for John I found myself obsessed with a boy in my PE class. We took showers after gym class in junion high. The "boy" was in 9th grade but he was bigger than anyone else in the school including the coaches and teacher. He was muscular and super handsome. All of the girls were in awe of him. The first time I saw him in the locker room I was shocked. His cock and balls were huge. He was the only kid that wore a jockstrap during PE at that age but he definitely needed one. The sight of him in that jockstrap was something to see. I made sure I was always positioned to catch a glimpse of him without the other boys noticing my interest. I spent every night jerking off thinking about his bulge

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Bigcoksmallsacoffury 6 月前

I love your story! I was young when I was exposed to porn and an older buddy started initiating for me to play with his newly grown up bulge. I didn't like it at first because I was younger and want filling out my tighty whities very good at all and didn't have pubic hair yet. I stopped hanging out with him because of that but always loved bulge ever since. I find value in most sexual content and get aroused by so many different people.

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nwukcupl 1 年前

Yes, we all remember how we first 'got interested'? Mine was my schoolfriend Mick (as in the post on our profile...)

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Gozre 1 年前

Meine Bi-Seite habe ich erst spät entdeckt.Ich mache seit 50Jahren FKK.Da war man hinter Mädels hinterher.Obwohl ich mir beim duschen schon Schwänze angeschaut habe.Gewichst seit ich 12war.Seit meiner letzten Freundin genieße ich es,beides zu machen und zu bekommen!

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jacklondonondeck 出版商 2 年前

至 mkyboy : I jerked off so many times thinking about that

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至 jojosmallone : Love to hear more about this

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Can't get the image of you kneeling in front of John out of my mind!

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cdcraver 2 年前

Exciting!

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ayne99 2 年前

Great to hear this. I am always curious about guy's first time gay thoughts or experiences. Thanks for sharing!

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tasacd4u 2 年前

Would love to hear more

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divedog1960 2 年前

Much like you there were times I was scared or just the timing was wrong. Two guys or one Very huge guy can be scary. But if I was very horny it was hard to say no. More than once I worried about what I got myself into. After a few close calls I would think about never doing that again. But being Horny overwhelmed my Brain.

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jackinbow 2 年前

I'd like to read about more of your experiences above, if you get time to write about them x

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tomiko4fun 3 年前

Big cocks have the same effect on me too

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bihubby49b 3 年前

yes, we've all felt guilty the first time and yes even later. but we all go back for more cause it's so fucking arousing.

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jacklondonondeck 出版商 3 年前

至 Uncleuncut : Thank you!

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Uncleuncut 3 年前

you are a really god writer. i had similar expirences growing up in a small hippy community

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Willcall83 3 年前

mmmm nice

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jojosmallone 3 年前

mm great beginning. I used t5o get teased in high school and at summer jobs too. Seemed like all the guys with big cocks some how knew i was interested and actually like their teasing

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divedog1960 3 年前

至 jacklondonondeck : Still gets me horny thinking about it.

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jacklondonondeck 出版商 3 年前

至 divedog1960 : Thinking about this has my cock aching!

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divedog1960 3 年前

I remember when I was young I worked at a place that had some guys like this. One of them was just like you described.. Not a big man but talked a lot of trash.. But one day he did the Grab his dick thru his Jeans thing and I saw how big he was. He was always asking me to join him at the Bar after work.. One day I said Yes and followed him in my car. After a few beers I did let him put my hand on his semi Hard Dick. He had been rubbing his hand up and down my thigh. When I did not pull away he took this to mean I was interested and I was. So after we left the Bar I followed him home. That was a Friday night and it turned into a long weekend. He was very nice to me at work from then on. Always went out of his way to smile and when we were alone. His hands were all over me. I still get Horny as Hell remembering this guy and his Huge Dick. Not super long compared to some of these guys on here. But it was super Fat.. To this day I still like a very fat dick.

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Nottsbiguy60 3 年前

Love your blog x

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putthefinger 4 年前

Very hot. I enjoyed this!

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MikaelaB 4 年前

Those early days of self discovery and the realisation that sexuality is more exciting and varied than we expected it to be. Very intense.

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