Net neutrality

Timing couldn't be worse. I'm learning how a burn heals. The wound is not a big deal at all. When healing starts deep down in nerves, that changes everything. I want to talk about net neutrality. I want to talk about what I learned about xhamster that made me very fucking proud of the time I spend here. I can't type. I can't stand pecking at a keyboard with one finger. I do pray that we can all still communicate in a few weeks. I researched the possible effects of removing net neutrality on internet porn. The term 'vanilla' was used a lot. I bet the first thing internet companies will do is upcharge users who wan to visit free porn sites. I know at this point, if you take away a man's access to free porn...he can become a ticking time bomb. Orgasms relieve stress. Most men can not have an orgasm without visual stimulation. Removing porn will affect issues like domestic v******e, irrational behavior, c***d abuse, d**g use, gun v******e, sexual harassment, job performance and more. I have been around men who lose their goddamn mind if they can't masturbate. I've seen men get so damn mean it scared me only to find out all that rage was caused by unexpected impotence. I may be a feminist. I'm also an advocate for pornography.

I read articles online where an xhamster spokesperson tried to make people understand this site does things like letting the LGTBQ meet people who they can discuss discrimination. It's a place where amateurs determine what is sexy instead of hollywood.. Here, the sexiest thing a woman can do is be real. When people ask me how I ended up on a porn site, I tell them I came here with absolutely no self-confidence. I found out that the most searched words were amateur, bbw, and milf. I realized my weight was a bonus not a flaw. I realized my age was a bonus and not a deal breaker. I learned that society is changing. It's a compliment when someone calls my pussy fat. It's a compliment when someone tells me my ass is fat. I feel so fucking lucky to know that you can be a beautiful woman no matter what your body looks like by simply being confident and friendly. I try to tell old friends not to worry about losing a few pounds. They don't realize they are already beautiful.

In my recent pics, a good friend pointed out I've lost weight. I've lost a lot of weight recently. I can't eat food with folic acid in it. That means I can't eat anything processed. My weight loss isn't planned. It's cool to fit in new clothes. But, if my weight drops too low, I lose my appeal. I dated a guy all summer knowing he wasn't comfortable with my weight. I was kept a secret fwb. I'd leave his house and come home to these ironic comments from men who told me I was perfect and they'd love to be with me. The guy I dated never wanted to see my page. He was pro-porn. He was not pro-bbw. I learned to embrace that label. I googled halinaplays for the first time tonight. Before the end of neutrality, I needed to see where you could find me. There were fifty fucking pages.

I am posted on basically every possible site devoted to bbw and chubby chicks. I should've been embarrassed. I felt like I did my part as a woman to let people know that it's okay not to be thin. It's also okay to be fucking bald and wear wigs. Weird shit happens when you dress up like little red riding hood. No one told me that video which is one minute and twenty four seconds long is everywhere. There are so many sites devoted to sexually explicit variations of little red riding hood. That video was an accident because i tried to take a pic and started recording and I said ;what the hel'l and flashed my pussy. Now at least a million people have seen my vagina. And that is fucking hilarious.

The other big winner was me dressed in an indian costume for thanksgiving. I don't know how many indian fetish sites there are. I can't make this up. My thanksgiving cosplay is on a site that has the name or description 'extremely powerful indian vaginas.' I found out what searches lead to my profile. One of them is 'anime bbw.' My favorite is 'nervous, shy, chubby, pussy.' That's awesome. I am seriously shy about videos. If I wasn't shy, I'd make a video in every costume. There are a lot of people pretending to be me and probably earning money. I did sign up for xvideos and i posted stuff there. I got bored with it. I just haven't bothered to take down my profile. I've never put myself on a bbw, chubby site. You'll find me there. You'll think it's me because they copy and paste exactly what I write on my xham profile. Oddly enough, I don't think you get a link to either of my tumblr pages. I got bored there too. I don't care about people catfishing with my pics and writing. I would never sue anyone for using stuff I post. I'm kind of flattered people put me on sites and build up the concept of halinaplays. It's kind of like I realized there are people ghost writing for me.

I don't know if the internet will be the same. I think eventually they will have to reinstate net neutrality. Anything could happen. I'm proud to be a part of this site because this site does fight for things like planned parenthood and sex education. I just found this quote ' we think that making sex videos is a revolutionary act,' I feel like I accidentally ended up being part of the revolution of sexuality. I am glad I am on a site that does more than bitch about the fact it might be harder to find specific fetish porn. Instead, they issue a statement like this

"As an international company, we see every day how restrictive governments use regulatory tools, like traffic throttling, to limit access to not only porn but political speech," Hawkins told me. "What people sometimes miss, especially in the United States and Western Europe, is that sexual speech is political speech. The same governments that severely restrict adult content are also the ones that limit sexual expression, LGBTQ rights, women's rights and access to different ideas."

i can't feel either hand because the left wound is numb from a burn and the other hand is numb from pecking at this keyboard to write this goddamn blog. I will be moving my blog about life when I can type again. But, it felt important to right about net neutrality and finding out I'm a proud member of 'extremely powerful indian vaginas.here on xhamster' If the revolution is over, we still changed everything. American women just don't know that fat women like me got naked online and men liked it. Men realized that porn made in studios can have the opposite affect than what is intended. A man can see a thin, blonde, teenage porn star with fake tits and the only thing they feel is inadequate. They realize that girl isn't going to be an option. But, there are women who aren't perfect that make them feel incredible. Those imperfections turn visual stimulation into a fantasy that could actually happen. I don't discuss it. Halinaplays has, does, and will have real life encounters with people on this site. It may just be for coffee. But, i'm real.

发布者 halinaplays
7 年 前
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JoannaB
JoannaB 6 年 前
"Here, the sexiest thing a woman can do is be real. When people ask me how I ended up on a porn site, I tell them I came here with absolutely no self-confidence."
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fukbuddy
MissStrutter420 : When did I threaten you dick brain???? I blocked you because you are a vindictive fuck that's why..,guess the only opinion allowed on here is the one's you sanction....you're the fucking coward...not willing to even consider another opinion...believe what you want you are a pathetic example of the bullshit we have created in our new USSA....
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fukbuddy
MissStrutter420 : AntiFa stomps on anyone who thinks even a little differently from them...and wants us all to drink the soviet-style totalitarian cool aid. I despise Bernie Sanders for being a hypocrite, that is railing on about the 1% when he himself is one of them...read about his $8MM book deal and his net worth and see. as it is I am pulling the plug on these discussions....oh and you too are blocked...
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fukbuddy
MissStrutter420 : Wrong idiot I am NOT from Canada, but hey believe what you want, this is tiring...I guess only the opinions of those that think like the rest of you matter and dissent is forbidden in the new USSA....
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DimJandy
You're absolutely right when you say: "Here, the sexiest thing a woman can do is be real. When people ask me how I ended up on a porn site, I tell them I came here with absolutely no self-confidence. I found out that the most searched words were amateur, bbw, and milf. I realized my weight was a bonus not a flaw. I realized my age was a bonus and not a deal breaker. I learned that society is changing. It's a compliment when someone calls my pussy fat. It's a compliment when someone tells me my ass is fat. I feel so fucking lucky to know that you can be a beautiful woman no matter what your body looks like by simply being confident and friendly. I try to tell old friends not to worry about losing a few pounds. They don't realize they are already beautiful."

I hope you aren't tired of people calling you smart, intelligent, insightful. Get used to it :smile:
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MissStrutter420
MissStrutter420 7 年 前
BTW, fukbuddy was from Canada last week. LOL LOL...what a loser and a coward. He jerks off all day and when not jerking he watches conspiracy shows. Only a fool thinks like he does. YES!!! I do have a hammer and sickle Soviet flag....it is for hockey purposes, like a team flag. Sorry, the American Way is not always the best way for example, healthcare.
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MissStrutter420
MissStrutter420 7 年 前
So fukbuddy threatens me and then like a coward blocks me from replying....typical American, a coward.
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cordwainer66 7 年 前
halinaplays : Bravo
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fukbuddy
MissStrutter420 : And I am of Ukrainian ancestry so to me the Soviets are the same as the Redneck KKK you hate they perpetrated the killing of UKRAINIAN BABIES!!! And Bernie's fawning over the commies Yeah you schooled me NOT!!!!...Whatever, I don't care for your opinion although I would defend the you right to have it, but with you wanting the hammer and sickle well you became to what a guy flaunting a Confederate flag is to black people...my enemy,, guess what tranny boy I don't give a fuck what or who you want to screw you just believe the lies that you were force fed by history's revisionists.....read a book... I bet you never even went to that Wikipedia link I posted. I will never stop fighting Stalinist cocksuckers....as for you kindly go fuck yourself...you fired the first salvo so if you want keep going...me I will just stand here and watch your muthafucking head explode...I'm not pro Trump....I am an AMERICAN you fucking asshole...proud of my UKRAINIAN heritage which your man Obama fucked by disarming my ancestral homeland...whatever... and BERNIE, DE BLASIO, PELOSI, FEINSTEIN and BOXTER are all Stalinist stooges.....
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MissStrutter420
MissStrutter420 7 年 前
fukbuddy : (CONT) One man from the South said, "I never thought a guy from Maine would be in touch more with our concerns and problems than here than our own guy McConnell." The DNC rigged the election on Bernie because he was going to win, he was such a threat but Americans are too stupid and narrow minded to listen to ideas and concepts. So Bernie did more than well in these Town Hals and look at every poll...and the stock market will not be "booming" for far too long if this horrible tax reform bill passes. If you think the mutiny is bad now, just wait and YOU Mr. fubuddy..you are probably the same guy who jerks over trans gurls like me and yet you still think you are straight. So Bernie had the balls to go to these town halls and sit down with people against him who are now for him. They were made to sit there and listen. Sorry this country has to start helping out the poor and middle class because the greed of the 1% has screwed this country and its people. So yeah, PLEASE call me a commie, I will wear it well. See the Republicans preach fear. They are no different then trying to tell you everyone is bad who does not think like them. Elephants want less government intervening because they want more business intervening...so not rule by law, rule by the dollar bill. See THAT is what it means to be a "TRUE PATRIOT" now a days. Well if that is the case, give me my hammer and sickle flag (I own a HUGE one)  because I am not against capitalism at all but I am not for kill or be killed because how much money you do not have.  It is a fine line that really is not that thin if you think about it. Also the Republican party uses anti-abortion cunts like Janet Porter, Roy Moore spokeswoman as their representatives. They take orders from hillbillies like Steve Bannon who looks more like a cult leader from the mountains every day more and more. I am Independent, I speak and think for myself. I do not need to bow down to some piece of fucking cloth. Oh yeah, the military fights for my right to think this way and I also believe that ALL NFL players should stand for the anthem, my team does THE DALLAS COWBOYS. So do not go that route on me either. ANTIFA are scum, White Nationalists have a couple of valid points but the extreme is scum. And YOU were just schooled by a sexy tranny.  Think I will put on my 1972 Home CCCP Summit Jersey National Team jersey on. I have this awesome pole hockey game, I love to play with my Russian team and BOMB the USA LOL.  I love Russia and have many friends over there, fellow Americans who work over there and ask them how they like it and they love it  Keep believing the lies FOX News and news agencies tell you. See the Russian people are AWESOME it is much like this country, there is a segment of idiots and most of them are in Parliament. Fukbuddy, you were schooled, much like Sanders did to those Trump Redneck voters.
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MissStrutter420
MissStrutter420 7 年 前
fukbuddy : Well I am PROUD not to be an "American Patriot."  I think ANTIFA are scum and HIlary a crook, just like the entire Republican Party.  This country is BEYOND a joke and there are countries that have the same amount of freedoms as we do so shove the Lee Greenwood song up your ass. Bernie Sanders represents what made this country great in the ways of thinking "all for one, one for all" in the business sense right after WW2. Now? it is more dog eat dog every day.  love when poor people and barely middle class talk about how great the Republican way is....trickle down economics??? Never worked and never will. SO call  me a Commie...I have 13 Russian/Soviet hockey jerseys that I proudly own. So I have been getting that all of my life because I am not some REDNECK scum bag, narrow minded fool. Our President is HATED by our biggest ally in the UK. Sanders? Go onto YOUTUBE and watch how Bernie Sanders BRILLIANTLY goes to areas where Trump won and watch the Town Halls he did with those same Trump voters. 95% of them agree after hearing Bernie talk and listening to his ideas that, "WOW,I should have voted for Trump." One man in the South said,
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halinaplays
halinaplays 出版商 7 年 前
fukbuddy : I have not responded because like most americans I know, I am working non-stop every single day for basic necessities like toilet paper and medicine. I'm not complaining at all. I was miserable when I couldn't work. Not only did my mental health suffer, it's hard to know your 65 year old mother, who was an RN for 25 years (which put her in the income bracket where more than half her earnings went to taxes) hasn't had enough food since I hurt myself. I mention these things not to bitch about my plight. There is something wrong when someone like her goes without and no one but her daughter who is disabled with a seizure disorder, a broken memory and mental health issues that make her completely unreliable is her Only hope to have food, medicine, electricity and drinking water. In this world, you can do what must be done, by any means necessary. Btw, I'm well educated with an extensive amount of credits in issues like, communism, female studies, world religion, criminology and more, despite a major in art.
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fukbuddy
MissStrutter420 : Can any true American patriot be behind a commies scumbag like Bernie Sanders? The man honeymooned in Russia, thinks Joe Stalin (the fucking pederast who murdered 15 million of "his" own people - 5 million of then Ukrainians in the Holodomor https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holodomor) was the greatest thing since sliced bread? Seriously neither Sanders or Clinton would have been good for this country...and don't get me started on AntiFa....that is the biggest fucking oxymoron ever...they scream that they are against fascism, but they adopt fascist tactics and iconography...dressed all in black, who the fuck were the blackshirts? Italian and British fascists....the problem is that our 'institutions' of higher learning are teaching fucking revisionist history
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milfwanted 7 年 前
As usual an intelligent and well written piece, pointing out personal details without seeking attention,I've been a bit random in correspondence but still support and love ur page z
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MissStrutter420
MissStrutter420 7 年 前
Everyone who likes Hilary, watch https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3W2GIZ8rN0   Hilary is a crooked cunt.
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MissStrutter420
MissStrutter420 7 年 前
halinaplays : Well if you are keeping score there has been an extension so our side "won" for now. As far as Hilary goes she is a pathetic disgrace to women and she is a crook. She is guilty like Trump as far as being crooked. Do you not know what she and the DNC did to Bernie Sanders? Bernie was by far the best candidate. Sadly people here one word come out of Bernie's mouth and they stop listening. As soon as he said public college should be FREE people stopped listening because they will not sit and listen. Here are facts, the DNC was struggling, out of money and in turn Hilary  gave them money so they rigged the primary for Hilary. Debbie Wasserman Schultz made sure Bernie would lose and Donna Brazzile gave Hilary the questions before a CNN debate and she was fired from CNN because of it. Hilary bought the party. Her team were telling women, if you are a true woman you must vote for Hilary. Hilary also was PRO WALL STREET, Corporate Hilary wanted to bail out the big banks, her friends again. Watch the town hall meeting with Bernie and the Trump voters after the election. 95% of the said they would have voted for Bernie after they actually listened to the man . Also Hilary tried to play victim as if Trump was trying to throw her off by "talking her" in debates. They gave her the questions to a debate before the debate. She funded the bankrupt DNC so the DNC made sure she would win the nomination. Is that just to you? Is that fair? Watch these then tell me how great Hilary is. Hilary is out of touch with her own party because she is for bailing out big banks like Republicans. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3W2GIZ8rN0  now after you watch that tell me how awesome Hilary is....she is beyond crooked.
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fukbuddy
I know I will undoubtedly loose some friends because of this but sitting by idly and watching what is happening is not how I was raised, or how I lived my life...if anyone doesn't like my politics...well then too bad, but this after all a country deeply rooted in free speech...so here goes...

As a former Marine, I do not like where this country is going, and while I am not for the current Republican party I find myself having less in common with Democrats who are totally to the left...Bernie Sanders and Elizabeth Warren and a slew of others are STALINISTS, bent on resurrecting the Soviet Union on these shores including confiscating whatever YOU have and earned by your own work and thrift just because its the "right" thing to do (in their eyes), their mantra is "take from the rich" well what the fuck are they???? Did you know that Bernie's wife made a 'killing' in real estate? And let's look at the tax returns of Nancy Pelosi and Elizabeth Warren, the Clintons and Bill DeBlasio...bet you would see some major hypocrisy there...

I'm sorry to disagree with you Halina, but the Electoral College was established to level the playing field...that is so that hyper populous states like California and New York could not and should not sway the election and that each state had the ability to make a difference. And when the vote swung the way I didn't like I had to accept it (maybe begrudgingly), I wasn't out "resisting" i.e. destroying property, screaming obscenities, etc...maybe we should have after Obama's second election win, maybe he would have been less of a dictator (his comment about having a pen and a phone was blatantly telling us that he would be circumventing Congress is in my eyes being a dictator...).

That is the problem here, we have been brainwashed by a new leftist version of the once venerable Democratic Party of JFK and RFK to believe that there is only one way to think - and that is the ultra left way ... for me and many like me that is not going to happen

Someone here made a comment about guns...well the Second Amendment was placed in the Constitution for one reason only...to prevent a tyrannical government from coming into power. And history has proven that if the citizens are armed and have the ability to fight back the tyrant is not as powerful...bet the people of Venezuela wished they had guns and an NRA to allow them the ability to fight back...

But what do I know? I'm just a stupid old man who clings to outdated beliefs like freedom, democracy, personal responsibility, the sanctity of the Constitution of and the rule of law....I took the oath to defend the Constitution from all enemies foreign and DOMESTIC and right now those enemies are all around us....they are Republican and Democrat, and everything in between...the end of net neutrality is the beginning...next it will be your ability to defend yourself and after that your other freedoms "Vis Pungnare Constanta Vincere"
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cyborg456
cyborg456 7 年 前
Halina we love you no matter what. A womans weight is only relavent when she is sat on your face, i say!
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cyborg456
cyborg456 7 年 前
All i can say is that Donald Trump is the American Mussolini.
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I findit interesting that anyone on a site like this would be against net neutrality. Part of the goals fo doing away with net neutrality is to make it easier to shutdown or heavily restrict sites like this.  Aerligious fanatic run ISP can now legally ban ALL of their users from using this site.  It's noit as simple as switch ISPS because i know as a fact there are many places where ISPs have a monopoly. 
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playmax223
playmax223 7 年 前
Terrific post
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m1ke1fc
m1ke1fc 7 年 前
Your incredible Halina, such a lovely person and a beautiful woman, amateur porn and this site in particular wouldn't be the same without women like you
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halinaplays
halinaplays 出版商 7 年 前
MissStrutter420 : I'm so sorry I wrote something that ended up getting hate mail sent your way. If there is one thing I've learned on this site it is that you never quit. I agree with every single statement you made except for your opinions of hilary clinton. I don't like to see her bashed. We wouldn't be in this situation if it wasn't for election tampering and the outdated concept of the electoral college. Never forget that hilary clinton got three million more votes than the man who calls himself the president. My mother raised me to believe the most important thing about america is the separation of church and state. The evangelical vote is the problem when it comes to losing our fundamental rights. Removing net neutrality is elimination of the freedom of speech. I wonder how many christian men are realizing they won't get to see transgender porn every night for free. At this point, to quit voicing your opinion when this site may only have two weeks left, is a mistake. If you see the video of the two democratic members of the FCC (both female) fighting like hell to warn the public what will happen if this goes into effect, it will make you realize we're so fucked it's almost amusing. At this point, bring on the trolls. I love verbal warfare. I'll miss everything about the internet including trolls. Today isn't just the day when they revoked net neutrality. It's also the day they announced the latest approval rating for trump has hit historic lows. His approval rate by democratic, republican and independent women has dropped so much it gives me hope.. Men who support trump, will feel betrayed by a man who takes away his porn and netflix. You never fuck with a man's remote control. Trump is shitting on every remote control in the nation. I am going to be one of those people who loses internet the second my rates increase. Ironically, I chose to support free amateur porn and it meant living at a rate of poverty nearly no one can comprehend. I signed on xhamster to make money camming nearly five years ago. because I couldn't leave my house due to mental illness and seizures. I made friends. I knew those friendships would end if I ever made a dime in porn. I chose friendship over money. I don't regret my decision. Poverty changes who you are. Next week I probably would've cammed, sold panties, done private videos because I got hurt and I can't use my arm for actual work. I'm fucked if I lose the internet. However, there is always a silver lining. If I lose the internet, I do start writing a book. I don't give up. I don't quit. I do what I need to do to survive. I do engage conversations like this even if we all get hate mail. It's conversations like this that make xhamster more than just porn. It's what I'll remember if this site is gone in a blink of the eye.
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filterance74
Silent17ninja : While it sucks, this decision was of no surprise; this was a very steep battle AT BEST. Now, this fight goes to the courts and Public Groups + States are suing the FCC and the majority of people backed Net Neutrality. The battle maybe lost but don't give up; the war is just getting started
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filterance74
MissStrutter420 : Unless if Dems win both the Senate and House.
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smither 7 年 前
yes, all wounds heal from the inside out. thus why i said that second degree burns are the worse. there is a 60% chance that it will leave a scar.

as for the net neutrality, it will fail. some of those idiots that come up with such ideas like it are the ones that are arrogant of their ignorance. hell ignorance is bliss and they captailise on it. it will go no where. as for your case stuidies. both men and women enjoy sex. its healthy.
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Southey18cock 7 年 前
THIS, was one of the best posts I've ever read.
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luvfemme 7 年 前
Well done!
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MissStrutter420
MissStrutter420 7 年 前
LISTEN TO ELIZABETH!! She is for the poor and barely middle class and she is against Trump. So if you want freedom of speech you are not down with Trump this issue Trumpies   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr58AO0h51Q
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samanthjonescd
samanthjonescd 7 年 前
CarrieAnne21 : ding dong, i concur and i hope others feel similar about moi.
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