How i became a Sissy (chronologically)
** the following chronological order probably represents my desires, urges, fetishes as a sissy in their priorities or meaning to me , from strong to weak , although they all matter and blend into each other ,and just wanting to be feminine/sissy is the one that grew the most , while the desire for being tied up and used remains the strongest, deepest and #1 **
For as long as i can think the idea of Bondage (passive, being tied up) has always turned me on incredibly strongly, more than anything else to this day. when i saw somebody being tied up in a movie or cartoon it always had something sexual about it to me , even before i really got into sexuality.
As the years went on and i got into puberty and also got chances to look up pictures of beautifully tied up women online my fetish for bondage increased with the exposure to it.
also because of puberty the sexual aspect of bondage became very clear to me:
i want to be tied up and used sexually. serving to pleasure another person without control over it.
Since i have always liked females (which has somewhat changed in the recent years) my fantasy of a partner for sex and relationship was with a dominant female and the pornography i gravitated towards naturally was femdom with focus on bondage although i did prefer seeing sexy females being tied up.
during puberty i was never with a girl, not even remotely like being friendzoned, and i could and can not talk to females.
i wanted a relationship with a dominant female but there was just no way i could ever achieve that due to my non existant social skills.
after puberty i came to the realization that even if somehow i could manage to get with a female, the chances of her being dominant and willing and able to fulfill my strong sexual fantasies are practically zero.
around that time i discovered futanari porn art (rule34) , which was the first time that a dick seemed attractive and sexy to me, it took some time but i got really into futa and then shemale porn, while first only thinking that i would just want to fuck them and ignore the dick. who was i k**ding, right? but then i discovered sissy trainers and got to like the idea of sucking and being fucked by shemale and futa dick. which isnt surprising because i have always been submissive. its rather surprising that it took me so long to accept that.
So i was (am?) a guy wanting to be with a dominant shemale.
I've been in that situation of practically 0 chance of finding a partner for my sexual desires before see above, only this time the chances are even lower.
So years of watching shemale porn and sissy trainers went by and the only option i see is to become a sissy myself.
I still generally dont like gay porn, just guys on guys without somebody feminine in between there are repulsive to me.
But i do adore everything feminine that isnt actually female, i really do not like or want vagina anymore.
I keep looking at sexy shemales and sissies and think about them all the time, i fantasize about being with them and being like them.
The only thing i can do is try to become the best possible sissy i can be.
I have recently written down a list of things to do ,and uploading my first pictures was an important step.
So in short my Submissive nature, lack of success with females and loneliness made me want to be a sissy.
For as long as i can think the idea of Bondage (passive, being tied up) has always turned me on incredibly strongly, more than anything else to this day. when i saw somebody being tied up in a movie or cartoon it always had something sexual about it to me , even before i really got into sexuality.
As the years went on and i got into puberty and also got chances to look up pictures of beautifully tied up women online my fetish for bondage increased with the exposure to it.
also because of puberty the sexual aspect of bondage became very clear to me:
i want to be tied up and used sexually. serving to pleasure another person without control over it.
Since i have always liked females (which has somewhat changed in the recent years) my fantasy of a partner for sex and relationship was with a dominant female and the pornography i gravitated towards naturally was femdom with focus on bondage although i did prefer seeing sexy females being tied up.
during puberty i was never with a girl, not even remotely like being friendzoned, and i could and can not talk to females.
i wanted a relationship with a dominant female but there was just no way i could ever achieve that due to my non existant social skills.
after puberty i came to the realization that even if somehow i could manage to get with a female, the chances of her being dominant and willing and able to fulfill my strong sexual fantasies are practically zero.
around that time i discovered futanari porn art (rule34) , which was the first time that a dick seemed attractive and sexy to me, it took some time but i got really into futa and then shemale porn, while first only thinking that i would just want to fuck them and ignore the dick. who was i k**ding, right? but then i discovered sissy trainers and got to like the idea of sucking and being fucked by shemale and futa dick. which isnt surprising because i have always been submissive. its rather surprising that it took me so long to accept that.
So i was (am?) a guy wanting to be with a dominant shemale.
I've been in that situation of practically 0 chance of finding a partner for my sexual desires before see above, only this time the chances are even lower.
So years of watching shemale porn and sissy trainers went by and the only option i see is to become a sissy myself.
I still generally dont like gay porn, just guys on guys without somebody feminine in between there are repulsive to me.
But i do adore everything feminine that isnt actually female, i really do not like or want vagina anymore.
I keep looking at sexy shemales and sissies and think about them all the time, i fantasize about being with them and being like them.
The only thing i can do is try to become the best possible sissy i can be.
I have recently written down a list of things to do ,and uploading my first pictures was an important step.
So in short my Submissive nature, lack of success with females and loneliness made me want to be a sissy.
5 年 前
Over time, my aspiration to live my femininity by wearing my glamorous lingerie and my chastity cage permanently has become daily.