I love a good drilling.

I haven't been active for months here. But at some point I saw a video which I liked mostly for its nostalgic value.

But it also really got me horny. I had fantasies of fucking my high school boyfriend, my college boyfriend, and a couple other hunky guys I liked but never acted on.

Here's a teasing photo of the drilling. Oh! That just makes me long for a good drilling! I love being filled up that way. LOVE it.
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Here is the video:

https://xhamster.com/movies/6877608/skater_girl_gets_pounded_by_a_dude_outdoors.html

Sex is so central to my existence. It always has been. But now that pornography is publicly available, so easy to find, and moreso because of these forums, I have found myself in an extremely heightened state of arousal. I have had more orgasms in the past four years than I think I had in the previous ten--and most have been solo.

Having grown up before this porn thing--and frankly having looked down at it, I am really finding myself in a bit of a quandry. Is this good for me? Or is it bad for me? Can it be both?

I consider my friends here (and on the other forums I interact on) to be real collaborateurs and friends. I think we have something special going on here that the wider world is ignorant of and wouldn't believe possible. We get each other off by looking not touching, and we have each other's backs in two senses (the sensual and the emotional). Isn't it interesting how nice people are in this xhamster context? We lower our inhibitions, we let it all hang out, we literally bare all, and instead of ridicule or embarrassment, we get emotional support, titillation, and an instant fan club.

I read the headlines on yahoo a bit too. And I even comment. I read about all sorts of horrible things: "fat shaming" and racism and sexism etc. And in the comments I see worse and sometimes confront it. I find it extraordinary and refreshing that here in this rather "secret garden" that is in fact public lewdness, we not only get along, but we celebrate variety. I have had my ego stroked here so much! "I LOVE your tits girl!!!" "I can just see your hot little cunt hiding in your hairy pussy--so hot!" etc. If someone said that at work, I'd be horrified embarrassed etc. (And yet now that I've been here for 4 years, I would actually be thrilled!) but here, in context, it is just a huge compliment.

I see fat guys on here getting off. I see skinny guys getting off to fat girls. "BBW" which on yahoo! would be "fat-shaming." Imagine if every fat-shamed girl made an xhamster account--she'd have self esteem times 10! I never read Cosmo. I've always thought it did harm. They write about sex (stupidly) while majorly reinforcing all the female insecurities we struggle with. xhamster to the rescue! No matter what your shape, you are a sex goddess here. Just be your sensual self.

And yet I compartmentalize too. This is really a strangely interesting topic.

In the spirit of nakedly frank communication, here's one of my recent self-portraits, from January 2016:




You see, no matter how serious I get while writing, in the end, I go for "tit" illation and another seductive encounter!