I'm almost at a 1000 days. I know I want to switch things up a bit. I also know I need advice. I never got a chance to thank everyone for suggestions on what I should change my status to. They were all suggestions that made me laugh, smile or blush. I didn't even get to thank the friend who suggested 'the one and only.' I knew I didn't want what I picked to sound really cocky. Maybe 'the one and only' is a bit cocky. I do feel like there aren't a whole lot of chicks on this site like me. I guess wearing wigs makes me entirely unique. I never dreamed that going bald would be the best… 阅读更多内容

I hope everyone contacting me gets this message. I didn't have a great weekend. I tripped. As I was falling I braced myself with my right hand. I regret not just face planting into the floor. I fucked up my wrist real good. It hurts like a motherfucker. People are sending me really great messages. They are asking me really great questions. I just can't type for more than a few minutes before I need to put my hand back in a heating pad. Please don't send me those godawful 'why are you ignoring me?' messages. I hate getting those. This is a bad sprain. I'm not gonna be able to wo… 阅读更多内容

I didn't get around to thanking everyone who left me a comment on my last blog. I was blown away by how nice people were. Everyone was right. I needed to focus on my family and my real friends understand I mean no harm if I don't reply. I live in florida and there is a wicked new virus that is flu-like but something entirely different. It's taken down everyone I know. I don't feel good. My buddy bukkakeslutsforever has this shit. He asked for a dying man's last request. I told him he could not cum on my face just yet. He really has to be at death's door for that to happen. He k… 阅读更多内容

Things have been rough lately. My mom got to see our regular doctor and he told her there was no reason to panic. She needs some tests. I know we're not out of the woods yet. We're at least on the right path. I was really depressed when my mom was in the hospital. I was really depressed when she came home. I was afraid she'd be different after a stroke. I feared another attack when we were apart. If you ever see someone with one side of their face drooping. If someone complains of weakness in one arm. If someone can't manage to speak. You need to dial 911 immediately. In my case… 阅读更多内容

My mom's recovered from the stroke but her hemoglobin and potassium levels keep dropping. I don't know how long she'll be in the hospital. This house is so lonely without her. I had a memory post from facebook that knocked me for a loop. I would post it but it's very sad. I talk about depression. I rarely do that. For the past four years, I've been determined to stay positive.. I can't just sit in my house and worry about what I'm facing. I took the plunge and joined instagram. I'm almost clueless how to use it. Trying to figure it out made me smile. I need all the distractions I c… 阅读更多内容

Yesterday was a really hard day. I had to take my mom to the emergency room. She has all the signs and symptoms that she had a stroke. They kept her overnight. I should know more today. I'm depressed. I'm scared. I'm lonely. I don't know when things will get back to normal. I don't really feel like chatting. When I feel like this I close myself off from the world. I'm not looking for sympathy or empathy. I just want a few good friends to understand why I'm unavailable. My friend request box may stay full. I will accept some people without taking the time to comment on pictures.… 阅读更多内容

I logged onto facebook and this 'memory' was posted. I did blog daily back then. This post made me laugh. It kind of made me want to cry because I know the final ending with this boy. Anyway, I thought you might like it. Rewind. I get the text that my ex wants me to come over. I was in a dilemma. He doesn't know about my alopecia. He doesn't know I've been wearing a wig. He just knows me and my messy hair. He's teased me about my tangles. I could've styled it. He would probably never notice my hair is balding in the front. Or maybe he would notice? Then I decided to wear that f-ing w… 阅读更多内容

I've avoided camming by getting all kinds of clothes for men, women and c***dren. One thing that I've always known how to do is shop. A friend of mine confided in me that he always had the urge to dress as a woman. He doesn't want anyone to know about his new transition. He's a pretty big guy. He asked me to be on the look out for girly clothes that would fit him. I'm not exactly skinny. lol. I know how damn hard it is to find sexy plus sized clothing. Sometimes, you settle for clothes that are out of style. To make it worse, sometimes plus size clothing cost a fortune. Sometimes… 阅读更多内容

I posted this and somehow I lost the part where I added the link: http://www.isst-d.org/?contentID=76 This actually amuses me. My profile says I've been active 761 days. I think my longest 'vacation' was eight months. I've been back about a month after another 'vacation' that lasted five to eight months. I don't know how many times I took a month of here and there. There was the close call with death from a staph infection that had me incoherent for about two months. Old friends know me so well. I don't even half to name the people who've stayed with me from the beginning. If you j… 阅读更多内容

*ignore the fact I hopelessly botch tenses with this. I still think you'll like it. You are so right, daddy. I didn't ask for permission to cum. I should've been a good girl and fucked myself, But I should've stopped before I came. It just felt so good to have something inside me. It hurt and I almost stopped. Then I thought about what you would want. You'd want to know that I was imagining it was your cock hurting me, Stretching me. I just pretended like you were watching me. Telling me to go harder. Telling me I could push it in further. Making me fuck myself faster. I jus… 阅读更多内容

THIS IS REALLY LONG. IT DOESN'T BELONG ON A PORN SITE. IT WAS AN ANNIVERSARY OF SOMETHING I DON'T EVER WANT TO THINK ABOUT BUT I CAN'T LET MYSELF FORGET. I RAMBLE. I'M A MILLION MILES AWAY. i WOULD HAVE TO CALL THIS MANIA MIXED WITH DEPRESSION. i'LL sleep SOON AND I'LL FORGET THIS TRIP DOWN THE DARK SIDE OF MEMORY LANE. i DID POST VIDEOS. i THINK I RECOMMEND NOT READING THIS. My mom woke me up to tell me the A/C was broken. I've joked about needing A/C more than the internet. My house quickly became a sweat lodge. I was ignorant and I let my mom use my foodstamps to go grocery s… 阅读更多内容

So many people helped me change my language back to english. I would never have tried to change a setting on the homepage. Fuck that stupid flag button. It took me about thirty minutes to realize I fucked up my settings and I wasn't just communicating with foreign people. That is pathetic. i have done some weird shit with my computer on accident. I have no clue why my xham page is now in another language. This truly sucks. I should've failed two years of spanish in high school. The only actual thing I learned in two years were how to say 'i love my cat' and 'my house is white' and fo… 阅读更多内容

I never leave some place without explaining where I'm going. I should've used it a long time ago. Tumblr has everything I need. I can post nude pics. I can write erotica. I can share my art with other artist who will understand it. I can write a blog. Not one motherfucking person can tell me what I should write about. It won't always be about sex. It will be my life. It will be the things I accomplished when everyone told me it was impossible. It will be wild parties and dru0gs. It will be how my parents were artists and I was raised in a marble factory. There wont have to be a mo… 阅读更多内容

I'm leaving and I won't be back. I met my boyfriend here so I'm glad I once loved this place. I hate everything about it. I hate that the people in charge are trolls. I hate that some people didn't think my time was spent wisely battling a troll. I don't like being told how to spend MY time. I just want to thank the people that helped me send that piglet a parting message. You did a good thing. The management is on his side. It takes a lot of people to send a message that users can work together to give sexistpig the warning to stop fucking with real girls. I can't stay and support e… 阅读更多内容

I owe everyone an apology. I accidentally ended up digging deep into research to find out who was a troll and who was real. I missed all comments and messages. I needed answers. I guess it depends on your definition of a troll. What if you found the most perverse and twisted pictures on the profile of someone who is an official content reviewer? I made it half way through nursing school and I did my time in nursing homes and hospitals. I thought I knew the definition of nasty. I knew nothing. What sucks is this member may be a cool guy. His fetish goes too far. If he is reviewing con… 阅读更多内容

Damn, I didn't get anywhere close to thanking everyone who left me a birthday greeting. I didn't even get to thank the people who posted on the piglets wall. I stay off his page. But, I looked. I saw avatars I hadn't seen in ages. I saw avatars of people I just met. I also saw comments where people were truly pissed at what they saw on his page and the lies about being a porn producer/performer. Making that request was not about revenge for the things he's said about me or done to my pictures. I wanted you to see why real girls leave this site. That page had about a thousand frien… 阅读更多内容

It is too easy to forget why we are all here...Sex. I got caught up with mad drama last night. It's beneath me to list their trivial names. It was too much drama. One bitch didn't like to hear I didn't have time to battle her in the PM box. I fight my battles in public. She was such a skank she wasn't worthy of fighting. Time is precious. I already run behind answering comments and friend requests. I answer PM's from people I know. In one day I've gotten over 500 PM's. Most of them say some version of 'hello.' I didn't plan for this page to get big. I miss writing each night. At… 阅读更多内容

First of all I have to thank bukkakeslutsforever. He's such a twisted pervert who loves things like cum gurgling. And he's also a great guy who can cheer me up when I'm not myself. I had a person I've been friends with for about a week send me some message like 'It looks like you don't have time for me with all your admirers. It was fun while it lasted. Best of luck to you.' I made it so clear at the top of my profile that I hit a depression and I also had another mental health issue and I would miss messages. I made it clear that my failure to respond had nothing to do with my large nu… 阅读更多内容

On Beauty Kahlil Gibran Where shall you seek beauty, and how shall you find her unless she herself be your way and your guide? And how shall you speak of her except she be the weaver of your speech? The aggrieved and the injured say, "Beauty is kind and gentle. Like a young mother half-shy of her own glory she walks among us." And the passionate say, "Nay, beauty is a thing of might and dread. Like the tempest she shakes the earth beneath us and the sky above us." The tired and the weary say, "Beauty is of soft whisperings. She speaks in our spirit. Her voice yields to our silence… 阅读更多内容

Someone had to teach me how to do this and it's been amazing. I'll always be grateful to SassyBri for her help. Maybe I can help you too. When it comes to computers I'm a fucking moron. This should be the simpleton's guide for posting pictures on your page. The first step is to pick what picture you want to post. I can only guide you how I got the statement about what my page does not. support on my profile. Thank You Rodent1. This is something he had on his page. He supported other people posting it. I also support other people to posting it. He listed the URL code under the im… 阅读更多内容